In the middle of the concert, I rushed off too the hospital, leaving my fans confused. This would definitely ruin my reputation. This feels like I'm letting every single of my fans down, I betrayed them. But, all of that doesn't matter if I couldn't see Jay for the last time. No, I don't want Jay to leave me. He can't leave me.
He CAN'T leave me.
He's my everything. My heart, my soul, my love, my best friend, most importantly, my family. His parents died when he was 6 leaving him all alone. Since then, he stayed with me and my dad. To be honest, it was only me and him from the very beginning. Dad is never home. He is always too busy with business trips and stuffs I could never understand. Each other is all we had. Not until now.
When I reached the hospital, he was in the surgery room. Then, a nurse came out. I looked at her with hope. She gave a sigh which gave me no answer. A moment later, the doctor came out and look at me.
"..and who are you ?", he said.
" His bestfriend, his sister, his love," I answered
" I need to speak to his guardians,"
" No, doctor. There's no one else. Each other is all we have. You know that,"
He sighed, " .. I'm sorry. Each other is all you had."
Tears started falling from my eyes. My body collapsed. This must be a joke. This can't be true. I looked at the doctor again with eyes filled with tears.
"..you're joking...rr..r.right ? This can't be true ! This ain't funny ! ," I cried.
The nurse grabbed my arm and hauled me to a chair nearby. " I'm sorry," she said, " you're Electra Spark aren't you ? The rising superstar?"
Damn nurse ! How can she ask that kind of question at a time like that . I just gave her a stare.
" Oh, sorry," there she goes again," but you're friend is forever gone"
And it all came back to me, all the times we spent together. All the cries and laughter. His beautiful face. His blonde hair. His mesmerizing blue eyes. His sweet smile. His voice when he laugh, cries, when he said goodmorning, when he said " I love you". Those kisses we shared. I can still feel his last kiss on my forehead. , last night. I could still remember the way his fingers run when he's playing the piano, when he played the guitar, last night.
I had never imagined that everything that we did last night was for the last time. Still, I couldn't accept the truth. If I knew what were to come today, I would stop time, I would say I love you to him a million time, I would do all those things he ever wanted but couldn't. Fate was written this way. How cruel ! Why Jay ? Why not me ? Jay was so bright, everybody loved him. Why does it has to be Jay? What is to come to me after this ? I'd lost my everything. How could I ever move on ? Electra Spark the rising superstar is nothing without him anymore. It was him who made me the way I am me. Without me, the world wouldn't even care who the hell is Electra Spark. Come back Jay. I don't want to miss you like this. Be here with me forever, Jay.
I started crying like a kid who had lost her mom at the park.Suddenly, a nurse came and handed me an envelope written, " to my beloved Electra". I stare at the nurse for a moment before I took it. I gave the envelope a life full of stare. I just can't bear to read it. Moments later, my manager, Milani, came to get me home. I'll read it when we reach home.
In this moment, I swear everything has changed. Goodbye dear Jay.
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